I haven’t shared this story with many people, but I am going to today! I am on a mission for many things, but one is to reach others who may have similar experiences in life, or are just in need of encouragement. 🙂
When I was 5 years old, I distinctly remember being on the playground at school thinking,”I am different. I’m not like these other kids.” God gave me this personality to be very introspective. Even in kindergarten, I was WAY too thoughtful….stuck in my head. I have always been very sensitive, very aware. Some might see this as a blessing, and as an adult I absolutely do! As a child though, it felt like a burden. I didn’t want to FEEL & think so deeply about stuff. I just wanted to be a kid!
Don’t get me wrong, I did play and I did make friends. But overall, I felt like I never fit. I was just too self aware and also very aware of other’s thoughts, feelings, and things going on around me……that feeling of being different made me become much more introverted. Trying to “bust out” of this turned into the form of rebelliousness. I didn’t know what to do with it. I had no one to talk to about it and so, in my own way, I just tried to make it through.
Why is it that many of us feel we need to “fit in?” Alot of this comes from past experiences…not being treated well or respected. We are looking for love, but not realizing people are ALL flawed and can really hurt us sometimes. They will never be able to measure up or love us in the way God can.
Here is what the bible says about this:
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
God loves and accepts us just the way we are. We don’t need to prove anything, dress a certain way, be popular, or according to the world’s standards, be “the best.” Just recently I told a friend that I still feel awkward in certain situations. The message God gave me was,”Juliet, just OWN your awkwardness. Just be YOU.”
This valentines day card from my sister pretty much sums it up:
I just want to offer encouragement to those of you who don’t feel like you “measure up.” Who are you trying to impress and why? If you are doing this, stop. Own your uniqueness. There is only one you!
Take today to remember those you love and tell them so!
I am SO thankful for the people I have in my life now, and for the ones who have really influenced me and accepted me unconditionally. On this valentine’s day, I want to say THANK YOU!!! You know who you are.