I had no idea it would be so hard to deal with my mom’s passing. The hard part for me is remembering the past year. It was a nightmare that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I realized recently that I had never dealt with how sad and traumatizing the events were. It all hit me a few weeks ago and it’s kept me awake at night. I never wanted my mom to see me upset, so I’d hide it. Most of the time I didn’t really have time to digest exactly what was going on…. I was on autopilot, doing the best I could just keeping up my schedule and trying to help take care of my mom.
My sister told me about an awesome support group that gets together at local churches called “Griefshare.” There is one near my house that’s starting up in sept. I think I might go. My sister said it’s helped her alot so far, to talk to other people going through this type of situation. If you or someone you know is dealing with grief from the death of a loved one, you should check it out.
I am sharing this because it’s part of life and I know I am not alone in this. We are all hear for each other on this earth, and I believe support is so important.
Without ending this on a sad note, I wanted to share a story I wrote about my mom before things got really bad. Last april I was in NC helping my dad and did this post about my mom on one of my old blogs:(Click Here). I am posting this because it includes a beautiful song at the end, (sung by Leanne Rimes). It was an experience that I will always remember. This song was sung at my mom’s memorial service, by my husbands dad. Listen to the words. I hope that it touches you like it has always touched my heart. 🙂